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Confession of a MMD userby =Madokah

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_{Outdated. This is no longer true heuheuheueheuh
I changed, and so did the situation.
I changed it due to some things posted on tumblr, and seeing that he brought up this, I decided to cross this, and make sure people know this is an outdated opinion and experience of mine.

Warning, long drama cliche story of my life goes after the line. Don't even bother commenting when you didn't read the whole story, because I'll delete your comment.
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You think I have a happy life like I have here on the internet? At home, yes. At school? Not at all.

So, I have a stupid class. It's full of those 'popular' kids. I'm the only one that doesn't fit in one of the groups that have formed in the class, because I'm different from the others.

I don't like hentai, but I get accused of watching and drawing it. Some people don't even know what it is, and just go with everyone. I told them so many times to stop, even my teachers said that it has to stop. It did, but just for a few months. I heared people shouting hentai a few times through the class, and they know it bothers me because of that I went to the teachers about it.

I don't care about boyfriends or girlfriends, but everyone's talking about 'that boy' or 'that girl'. Everyone had a girl or boyfriend once. In all the time I've gone to school, I only had a boyfriend once, and that was in kindergarten. Not kidding. And when my 'friend' (That's now one of the popular kids) came to school, she got a boyfriend in less then a HALF YEAR.

I get looked weird at because I'm not interested in things they like. They think I'm weird because of that. I see things way more different then other people. I'm highsensitive. I live way more intense than other people do, so I experience things way more intense. If someone makes a stupid joke about me, I get upset more often, and that's why people like picking on me, but I really can't help it unless I change my way of behaviour, which I don't want to happen. I don't want to become one of them, but that's in trade for getting picked on. Almost no one knows about my true feelings, because I keep on cropping them up. I just smile, but usually like I have a stomach ache or something.

I have almost NO social life. I don't live close to my friends at all, so I can't just walk to them if I'm down or in need of support or comforting. Besides that, all of the friends I do have, are a year lower of me. I skipped class, so I'm one of the youngest in the class.

Worst of all, I recently discovered that a few people said to a 'somewhat of a friend' of mine that she shouldn't go with me in a group. It was kind of like 'Don't go with her in a group. You shouldn't'. Something like that. Someone told that to me, I was heartbroken. That was the coldest thing I ever heard in my entire time that I go to that school. I'd rather cry my heart out right now, but I can't since it's really late here.

Long story short, people don't like me because I'm not like 'them' and have different interests and hobbies than them. The only place where I get accepted is on the internet, where I can truly express my feelings without being made out for something I'm not. I just wish people would accept me for who I really am.

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EDIT: I felt that I had to tell this to everyone I know here on the internet. It suprises me that so many people actually care and that some people even have a similar situation. Thanks for all the support

Thanks for reading.

Ps: This wonderful model is by ... I love it :3}

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~AnExplodingRuby May 7, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

I hardly have a real social life and I can STILL relate to this...

When I was still in school, I... well... I never had any friends. Nobody liked me, just because I was different. If there was one person who was bullied the most in my schools, it was me. And not even the teachers treated me fairly.

v_v Even now. I pretty much fell out of an entire site a while back just because I joined some anti-Ponies (FiM Ponies, mind you) group. It was deleted, and I was punished for it.
And I KNOW that everybody made fun of me... I know that everyone laughed at me.
And then not long after, I was banned by its owner for snapping at an admin who's done nothing more than attack me and others...
I should have just left that stupid site and went back to being lonely and miserable, since that's all I've gotten from it. =_=

Personal rants aside: I can relate with this, and I feel bad for you. If it weren't for idiots like these, the world would be a better place...

*FBandCC Apr 7, 2012

omg im living the same way! about everyone at school doesnt really like me (including some of my friends) because i like anime

i mean theres nothing wrong with liking that stuff!!
-i read your story and trust me,your not alone
people also dont really like me because i dont wanna date anyone 'cause i personally think dating is compleatly pointless
but serously people should get a life and move on =_=

~mikufan1991 Sep 8, 2012 Student Artist

Kindof the same.. I get made fun of for liking vocaloid.. OTL...

*skullyj82 Mar 23, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

simply put you are not alone, Being an individual is something special and indicates many challenges ahead due to the fact that you will simply never fit in with people that choose to be ignorant and not understand you. Being high-sensitive or hyper sensitive is a gift and a curse that a lot of people including myself share with you. Remember that no matter what people think you are amazing and creative. I don't know you but I came across your post when doing some research regarding the MMD community, and I made an account just to comment. As long as you can see the creative light within yourself you don't need anything else to keep you going, but again you have many friends out there you just have to look around and you will see them. The internet is a beautiful thing.

Love and light and best of luck to you and may you over come the many challenges in your life.

xoxo
J Alexander CEO Jteam Productions Studio.
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~BookGirl02 Mar 5, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

The best thing to do in this kind of situation is to hold your head up high and don't give them the satisfaction of seeing you get hurt or angry, obviously if your "Friend" followed what those kids said, she is not your friend, but just hold your head up high. You be the stronger, better person and take what they say in stride Laugh it off, ingore the close minded people in your school! Just because they can't seem to get to know you is their prolem, not yours. Be proud of your diffrence, there's so much more within you, you shouldn't try to be like them because there's only one you and you only get one life, make it the way you want it to be-- think, would you rather be like the "Popular" people or just be you?

~OoAmmyoO Feb 25, 2012 Student Digital Artist

I really sympathize with your problem.... I had almost the same issues until I got into the university and started to know artists in real life. Being different its awesome and sucks at the same time, and artists are sick of knowing that. We cant even reply properly because people are purely ignorant, how come they can say such mean things about something they don't even understand? If you don't like it, then fine, ignore me, but don't act all superior or start badmouthing me when I'm not there. I sincerely think they have a social problem, not me. I truly accept people for what they are, I'm just asking for the same thing back. But that doesn't happens, 'course. Gah. When did the world got full of mean people? Hang on there, know that there are some people here who are sincerely wanting the best of you.

~Lunatic-Blade Feb 24, 2012 Hobbyist

Ehh... I'll just leave this here:

_{It's either be like them and get accepted like them or are not like them and not get accepted like them. Humans are social animals; adapt to the herd or be an outcast forever.

Yet again; I can't really call it adapting; you need to see it as improvement. If you don't see the positive side of changing yourself, you will never be able to cope, adapt and blend in with the world.

Moving to a different school or trying to be a bit like them (and just be yourself at home or with friends) can work. Also trying to find these type of people that "accept everyone" could help you working yourself up in the pyramid of respect. You won't reach the top of it, but some people are lucky to be born with the skills to work themselves to the top shelf.

And here's the biggest thing that can help you, it may sound stupid, totally useless and completely non-accomplishable but it's a golden hint:
Do NOT think that they are superior. Show you have selfconfidence, show that you do not care about what they say. Show them you are proud about who you are and what you have become, look down on them; be cocky to them, return them the favour of their own stupid behaviour by being a total bitch to them.

Lacking self-confidence is usually the cause for being bullied on; you don't know your strengths and rely on other people's opinions. Bullies feel it and abuse it.}

I've had the same problem a few years ago, I've battled it and now am on a big road of changes and improving myself. I haven't reached my goal yet but my classmates that used to "hate" me sometimes tell me they see great improvement with my behaviour. ;D

!Jessieheart-2 Feb 18, 2012 Student Filmographer

I know..Though my class doesn't have these " Popular kids ". And I'm the only one who knows japanese in my class, No, My school. DXXX

That is why i have the internet ; u ;

~mikufan1991 Feb 16, 2012 Student Artist

..... i have the exact same life....

~mikufan1991 Feb 16, 2012 Student Artist

and also my parents are dissappointed in me for liking vocaloids ;w;

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